Saturday

This morning I'm just enjoying some coffee, wife is making breakfast and its pretty mellow except for the dogs running around. Plan on going shopping, that's my shopping today for groceries and the things I want. We shop separately mostly because she spends to much time doing it and everything is low fat this, low fat that, flavored with something or whatever. Anyway its sunny out and I'm heading to Eastern Market downtown Detroit, which is only about 15 minutes from here. WW out

Business as Usual Here in the D

Auto Workers Busted Bozing and Tokin at Lunch

Retarded

What you call people is how you treat them. What you call my sister is how you will treat her. If you believe she’s ‘retarded’ it invites taunting, stigma. It invites bullying and it also invites the slammed doors of being treated with respect and dignity.”
–14-year-old Nick Marcellino, Rosa’s brother, in testimony to the Maryland General Assembly

This photo above just makes me melt inside. How could u not love a girl with a smile like that.  Incredible kid. Who would call her retarded to her face or otherwise.  That hurts me to know she has had it happen.  

Let me follow the above with by saying, I don't like the word retarded. I never had. I don't let my kids use it, I don't use it and I will check somebody politely if they use it in demeaning way. That word basically means that a "retarded" person is somehow at fault for being that way and its meant to be an insult. So, some good news on the front is headed our way in regards to the word "retarded". Disabilities advocates as well as I are applauding Congress for passing legislation that eliminates the term "mental retardation" from federal laws. This measure, passed by the House, changes the phrase "mentally retarded" to "an individual with an intellectual disability" in existing health, education and laws. Does it really change anything? Ahhh...probably not, but at least it makes some headway from a standpoint on how people with mental disabilities are looked at. How many of us haven't looked at somebody with a mental disability and see them doing something that looks funny to us and smiled. I have. I wont deny it because quite frankly, people do weird things whether they can control or not. In those cases I think I would like to use the word "mentally hilarious" but I use it even with non handicapped people who are acting crazy. But getting back to my feelings on this subject. I have a very soft spot as hard ass as I think I am for people and children that are handicapped mentally. Life is just so flipping hard by its self to have to go through it with looks and stares and pre determined stereotypes. I feel bad and Ive been told not to do that. They are just different, god made them different. That's all. My children feel the same way. I seem lots of changes in attitudes and feelings towards those with mental handicaps and I'm glad they changed the law even though its just words. Its called "Rosa's Law," named after a Maryland girl with Down Syndrome, and it passed the Senate last month and now goes to President Obama for his signature. I'm happy today that I read about this. High point for me.

Assholes Live Longer

We tend to think of calm, peaceful Zen, hippie types as the healthiest and happiest people in the world.  After all, that three times divorced, douche bag getting red in the face as he screams insults to the cashier at the 7-11 will for sure be dead of a heart attack before he's 50, right? Maybe not according to some new studies, however the fuck they did those. But, being an asshole may keep you alive longer they are saying. That explains why maybe I'm still here. The down side to this, is that there are more assholes around that I have to deal with also.The behaviors that get us tagged as assholes is still debatable I think. But being one may just make us healthier. I always thought if I could go to a time where the asshole population was weeded out somehow that I may be happier. I think the best time reference I have for that would be back in the days of the cowboys. Back then, if you were an asshole I figured you didn't live very long, because you would get shot, right?  So maybe there was a natural selection in play there. But the downside was if you were good with a gun, you be as big an asshole as you wanted to be and still reproduce more assholes that were good with guns. So, I could never logic it out that far in head, to make a design if indeed that was a good time to live. So, anyway..I'm still here since I haven't found that time machine to check it out.

I think they we can almost all agree that the reason we have such a thing as swearing in the human language is because it's a fucking great thing.  But why do we do it when we get hurt? Your walking and hit your knee on the trailer ball on your truck and when you yelled "Mother fucking, god damn, cocksucker...that hurts" it just to help out with the pain a little bit more. Go figure that out. Why doesn't, "oh, its a wonderful day and I wish that hadn't had happened, does anybody have any flowers I can have" work as well. I don't know the answer. Maybe they need a study for that also.


I will tell you this from experience though and kinda sums it up for me and explains why I may live longer. Each time I'm in the hospital I never take my pain and keep it to myself. I can, but I choose not to. I do it for the attention so I don't die without somebody watching me. I demand more of hospital staff an doctors and I take control of the situation and I get more attention. While they may want me to die, the whole time I'm threatening them that if I do, my wife will sue the fucking shit out them. It usually gets me more morphine and sedatives which is usually all I want anyway.


So to sum it, I used to think being an asshole was going to kill me, but now I'm kinda thinking being an asshole pays off. If I had a choice. Which I don't.


Note: I found this cool guide on how to be really good asshole. Its below;

How can I become an asshole in five easy steps?

Introduction

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Have you ever thought that deep down you really were not a nice person? If no, this guide probably is not for you. If yes, congratulations, you're well on your way to becoming an Asshole! If you follow these easy steps, you will be able to ensure that people think of you as an asshole, and not as a mere jerk, putz, loser or boor.


Step One: Have Impossibly Refined Sensibilities

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This is the most essential step to becoming an asshole, and probably the most difficult. It requires an amount of study because you will need to know your field. Faking is not an option; a fake will be held up as an object of scorn and as a pretentious moron, which is clearly not your objective. I'd suggest specializing in a particular area, like food or music. While General Assholery is spectacularly impressive, it requires nearly a lifetime of study to properly attain. Knowing your field means knowing it utterly; if you intend on being a Food Asshole, you'll not need to be able to instantly tell the difference between a good Chateau Lafaurie-Peyraguey and an indifferent Puligny-Montrachet, you'll need to be able to expound to your host or hostess on why the former would have been a much better choice to serve with dessert.


Step Two: Use Really Big Words

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This is a much simpler step in your ascendance to Divine Asshole. All you'll need for this is a thesaurus and a dictionary. Take some common place words and replace them with obscure ones, instead of "beauty" say "pulchritude", instead of "childish" say puerile. Make certain that you are properly using your new obscure words; loudly correct anyone who uses them improperly.


Step Three: Choose Something To Hate

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It doesn't matter what, as long as it is something almost universally loved. Don't hate the French if you're English. Don't hate the Backstreet Boys or N'Sync, or you may be mistaken for a wit instead of an asshole. Whatever you do decide to hate, make sure you know enough about it to hate it properly, I'd suggest hating something in your field of expertise. If you're a Food Asshole, hate Italian Cuisine, if you're a Music Asshole, try hating Mozart or The Beatles. Make sure that whatever you do hate, is common enough to come up in casual conversation; if you're an Art Asshole, don't hate Gustave Caillebotte, as it's hard to bring conversation repeatedly around to lesser-known impressionists.

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No matter what the topic of conversation is about, make sure you play a starring role in it. If someone is complaining about their hateful and psychotic ex-boyfriend, tell them all about your evil ex, who was way more evil and psychotic then theirs. If you don't have an ex, make one up. If someone manages to mention something remotely related to your field of expertise, monopolize the conversation. If possible, turn the conversation back to the thing you chose to hate in Step Three and complain loudly about it.


Step Five: You Are Always Right, Be Secure In This

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This is the culmination of your training as an asshole. Once you have mastered the first four steps, you are ready for this. When someone decides to argue with you about the merits of the thing you hate in step 3, intellectually bludgeon them using the words you learned in step two. This should not be especially difficult if the hated item is one in your area of expertise from step one. Resort to ad hominem attacks deriding your opponent's intelligence. Don't be overly concerned about being clever, witty or eloquent; you are an asshole afterall, not a bitch. If you manage to win the argument either by logic and reason or by your opponent leaving in disgust; be an ungracious winner and taunt your fallen foe.


Conclusion

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If you carefully adhere to the above steps, you will be a Supreme Asshole in no time. While you may not have many friends, you can be secure in the knowledge that being an asshole is always better than being a jerk or a loser; they not only lack friends, they lack style.

The jobless rate in the Detroit metropolitan statistical area was 15.5 percent in March, up slightly from 15.3 percent in February and up 1.2 percentage points from a year-ago level of 14.3 percent.

I can hardly remember a time in Detroit when I could drive the streets during the day and it wasn’t crowded with people just hanging around party stores, on their porches drinking, hanging on the corners and basically not doing shit. I always asked myself, why I am working my ass off everyday driving these auto parts, tires, meat from the packing company I used to work for or whatever I was doing. How can these people just be doing nothing all day. Granted some may be working at night, but unemployment in city starting in the mid 80s has always been higher than any other place in Michigan. I’ve never collected unemployment in my life because I could always find a job. One of my jobs was collecting frigging blood from cows in the slaughter house so the locals could make sausage out of in Pole Town/.  Now, it’s a god damn nightmare here in the city. People stealing, killing and selling dope everywhere. Kids aspire to be criminals because there is no work. The auto companies are all but gone with outsourcing everywhere. What the fuck is going to happen to this city? It’s been run by gangsters, rappers and hoods for the past twenty years. Finally we get a mayor that isn’t a pimp daddy and now it’s almost unrecoverable. My beloved city where I grew up on the streets. They were mean streets but not like now. Nobody shot anybody in my day unless you were in the mob. You may have shot up a car, or burned some shit or kicked there ass and carved initials in them, but not just killed. That was a big deal.  I don’t know what the answer is, but I’m sad that when I go there to eat or visit the museum or Belle Isle I have to carry my big gun on my side. Detroit is now where I take my kids to show them what’s it like not have anything. But that’s not what I want it to be. I want it to be a place filled with places to go, places to eat and things to do. I’m a big city guy. That’s the way it is.

Go get a fucking job. The real problem is nobody wants to bus tables, wash dishes, sweep floors and do the stuff that is considered shit work. It’s because of the pay and they collect as much on unemployment. It wouldn’t matter to me and never did back in the day. Go get a job. Get two jobs, be a father, a family man, live up to your responsibilities and do anything but nothing. Nothing makes you weak. My rant for the day

Testing for Test

Test Results for test E

Expected Amount 200mg/ml
Units EU/ml
Results 208.619
% of Expected 104.3%
Test Method HPLC

If you guys wanna put your faith in what you pin for HRT, I suggest you start testing your sources. Or not. Its up to u. I can get it done for you or you can find a lab. It isnt expensive.

Monday

Uneventful day. Nada, shit, shinola. Sitting at my desk listening to my Ipod. Im cutting everybody out today at work. Didn't answer any questions, took no phone calls, checked status on some testosterone test I'm having done, mailed some money for some hormones at lunch. That's about it. Not a bad Monday